The thoughtless state...In association with the DIVINE

It was a chance meeting or was it destined ?,I am still questioning the event or the chain of events... My mind is not devoid of such questions and my mind wanders in all sorts of logicality...and then on that wonderful day I met her in person.. MAA SHREE says that  GURUs do not have gender but neither can I write "IT" 

I sat in front of her .I still remember the serene look on her face ,I still remember the sweet voice that spoke to me.. I still remember the immense love that she exuded ...and I still remember that tears rolled down my cheeks unabated, I still remember that she smiled at me , I still remember that she asked me whether I would like to say somethings, I still remember that melodious and love filled voice. I remember all. 

It was after probably two years after my first meeting with her that one day I was driving her back from ashram in khodala to mumbai. She was seating on the rear seat. All the way from the ashram we were discussing lot of things mainly about why GURU is required.. I had many questions and I was sheepishly asking her one question after another and she was so very lovingly answering them all. It was night and there was a slight drizzle ny the time I entered Mumbai. The air conditioning was working at the lowest speed but the inside of the car the cabin was freezing cold. Now I was driving towards lokhandwala where GURUJI would be staying the night. I had to take a right turn from the signal ahead and continue  on the straight road. I took the right turn and instaed on the road ahead I actually took a U turn and kept driving exactly on the opposite side and I was oblivious to the entire event. MAASHREE spoke to me and asked me whether I am confused about the road and I said No. MAASHREE then guided me to take another right turn to come back to that signal from which I took the U turn and she guided me towards the destination.

Point is I have driven to lokhandwala so many times that the route was etched in the back of my mind.but on that day I really do not know what had happened ..I was completely thoughtless sitting on the wheels and I was not aware of the surrounding ,my situation awareness was completely blanketed the presence of the divine herself.I did not know where I was driving or what was my direction or where was i going. May be it was her design to show me what thoughtless state is because earlier I had questioned her about this very thing and though she had answered she knew that I was not satisfied with the answer. So probably she showed me the practical. I can never forget that day and I get goose bumps even today when I imagine what thoughtless state can be.

In spite of my divine association with HER why am I so arrogant??? Oh lord please help me kill my demons.