I COULD NOT LIE......BEING WITH THE DIVINE

I had the honor of driving MAA SHREE as and when I was available.

(.It is with immense pain that I would like to say that I do not enjoy that divine honors any more as some demon has come inside me to reside and that idiot of the demon refuses to leave..BUT  I am trying again, I will not lie, My trying is not hundred percent.)

Yes where was I? I had the honor of driving GURU where ever she had to go .It could have been to a shopping mall ,It could have been to a coffee shop or it could have been driving her to Ashram or back from Ashram.

On one such occasion I was driving MAA SHREE from ashram back to mumbai. One more disciple was with me in the car. I was at the wheel and that other disciple was sitting beside me.. MAA was sitting on the back seat. She was quite and we were softly listening to some hindi songs which Maa also liked.

The cabin of the car ,as usual was getting cold and I was feeling very cold ,my hands were freezing, just then Maa said "Amlan reduce the air conditioning the cabin is getting cold " I said ' "that's going to happen maa ,you are on board, " She smiled I saw that from the rear view mirror and a smile so enigmatic,so beautiful and so perplexing that smile was a unique one.. I still have that smile etched in my memory.

Now after driving for about two hours we stopped at a food joint.

we ordered some sandwiches and coffee. and we spoke of mundane things ,non consequential talks like the decor of the place ,ambience of the place etc etc.

Just then MAA got up to go the washroom ,and I taking that as an oppurtunity told the other disciple that I am going to have a cigarette and I went to a remote corner to enjoy a cigarette. 

Had my fill of smoke ( Actually I smoked two cigarettes.) and then came back to the table. MAA was already there sipping her coffee. For a moment I felt inhibited but then I came to the table and sat down and started sipping my coffee. MAA asked me where I had Gone.

This was the moment I was waiting for  I knew MAA will ask me and I will say that I went to the washroom or any other lie that would come at the spur of the moment.

AT THE SPUR OF THE MOMENT THE TRUTH CAME OUT AND I SAID THAT I WENT TO HAVE A CIGARETTE AND WITHOUT ANY INHIBITION. I was stupefied at the ease with which I told the truth.

Then we again were on the road and I kept on reminiscing that ONE CANNOT LIE IN FRONT OF THE DIVINE...SHE AGAIN SHOWED ME 

I was blessed and am still blessed as her arms are wide open for me.....

Oh lord get this stupid demon out of my system.

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